I always analyze myself.I give a thought everytime i go to bed that what i have done today is right or wrong..??? the job i did is right or wrong..??? and i always try to find the answers.i feel enthusiatic doing this analysis but some time regret doing that and feel guilty.this is how, i am very balanced and am fully responsible for my deeds….!

I read TOI (Times of India).I am not advertising rather suggesting that everybody must read a newspaper.It will keep you attached to the nooks-corners of this damn world .vocabullary building,improved literature,time pass,movie review are the benefits you can get by doing just this little thing .

It had an article about confessions of women who were ditched,love-mourned by their spouses.These were strong,professional,modern,upperclass houswives,media personnel and so so.They had gone to realization of prism of relationship.They now know how bad the color of rainbow is when love-lorn are ditched.These are blessed one but they also suffer.some said you are fortunate if you have never been in any relationship.

They are also feared,traumetised,insecured.they say that we are weak.just think if this is the situation with them then how in this world were ship-herd like women who are illiterate wolud be behaved.Just thinking about this your spine will be chilled to horror of experiences .!!!

They have faced the truth staring into their face.they are couragious,still they are physically, mentaly,emotionaly harashed.how could these world-awared ladies can allow someone to let them abuse for years..???.

strange..!!! they do because they are weak.they are helpless.they can climb the ladder of success again and again but at the end they are living at the mercy of these scoundrals called “male” and male based world.I cursed GOD who made these vultures.They are single again status women cursing their life and relationship..!

In IITs so called females are very few to count.so called because they are biological female not in looks,in manners,dresses and attitudes.If you happen to be stranger and land up in IIT campus you will find this race.Go to social gathering places like canteen,cafeteria and to your upmost strange a girl would be standing beside you in a pair of trousers,goggles,skin tight T-shirts,boby hair cutt,no curves and you would be counfused by her aroma to say least that its a boy or girl..???

so i am lucky that a few of these species are my batchmate.when i came in IIT i would fantacise that aahh !! i would have lab partner,romance,going movies,chatting with them,dream date but GOD you are so unkind to us.

One day she was sitting on 1st row bench and i on second.Then came my huge batchmate.He is so macho-look guy .He sat beside her but maintaining proper distance as much was possible.

I was watching both of them.Girl who has average look,thin hands,very thin and small body length .on the other hand the guy is almost double her size,triple in thickness of hand and macho look.

I thought suppose he says to her “oye…ugly bitch get off from here and go to hell”.

what she would say..???is it her mistake that she is weak..???.she has no control on the way she is made.so why should she suffer.???she can’t slap that guy because she is weak.she can’t abuse him because she could be stolen rather stripped off with her modesty by that beast.so she is destinned to be abused and traumetised.she is helpless.God has made her like that.

Just thinking that i cursed the GOD.

When ever i read a news about a girl being raped,physically abused,slapped,her face burned by throwing acid on her face i cry and cry…I curse GOD who has cursed these women.

if some idiot has fallen in love or lust and girl doesn’t reciprocate then he rapes her,throw acid on her face or even can go to the extreme of murdering her.is it girl’s mistake that she is girl..????

i say no .this is curse of GOD.GOD is so biased.why dont he makes the girls same powerful as boys are.Why only women can give birth to kids..?? why they only can be impregnanted..??? why they are so weak and classical..??? all these question are there to be answered…!!!

GOD you are so unsympathetic and biased. What is your intension..??? Just tell me .I will never curse you.
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This is not an end to this subject.Thousands of question are still to be answered which are whirling in my mind.I have many stories of women and girls to share with you ,to throw light on this gender.God please empower me,give me strength to realize their trauma,fear,abuse and pay my tribute.

Till then bye.
Hoping to be back.Have nice and critical reading.